You are unique. Just like everybody else.

Hello all.

Happy to report that I am alive and well from my third floor apartment in BKLN!!!

Still adjusting in various ways and realizing the enormity of this goal that I’ve given myself and--staying true to form--my eyes are bigger than my stomach.

When I was new to LA, a friend said to me: Narrow your focus. Put all your energy into one thing – you’ll get there 10x faster. In so many words. I don’t remember exactly what he said.

This has always proven impossible for me. And still does. My ambition and appetite for learning are boundless, and the internet has rotted my brain. I have the attention span of a tit fly. (I feel like Millennials could save the Earth if only we could get off social media.)

But then I think: Well come on now! This is all about discovering our way! Our specific way of doing things, and applying to that. What works for someone else may not work for me. And so here we are.

But this goes back to something else I’ve learned more succinctly in the past few weeks than previously: I am not an actor. That is one of the things that I do, it has been my primary focus for a long time, but I am like Apple. I don’t just make computers (forgive me, I’ve been listening to Start With Why).

What Lady Gaga said in her Oscar speech the other night - it really stuck with me. And you can say all you want about the Oscars and how ridiculous they are, I won’t argue with you and I had no design on watching them. That being said –

“This is hard work. I’ve worked hard for a long time… There is a discipline for passion…” - LG amid the Oscar scurmuffle.

To me this means: Yes, Katie, it is hard. Your goals are hard and varied and many. But not impossible. And also, you're hard on yourself. And maybe, you’re not able (presently) to see the forest through the trees and maybe your body knows something your brain does not (shocker).

I know my personal why. It’s not something I will articulate right now, but I know it. I’m constantly in battle between what I ‘know’ I should do--focus, narrow--and what my intuition/my inclinations seem to want me to do.

At the end of the day, as with everything, this is about finding your way of doing things. I want to be my most authentic self. That means I do things the way I fucking do them. I’m absolute shit at trying to laser in anyway.

Hours for February:

16 hrs 23 min - learning

6 hrs - doing

7 hrs - mind/body

TOTAL: 29 hrs, 23 min

110 hrs shy of monthly goal.

These are humble beginnings.